HI! I'm doing it again. what is this, the 5th time I've gone and remade myself. BAH! not even counting anymore. But if the title has indicated anything, yes there was a weird dream and I will get to it when the time comes, but for now, UPDATES!

Had a bit of a depressing few months, and tried to get my ass into gear. I have been making a lot of headway with the new book I'm working on, but I can't share it yet. The reason is because I've taken a suggestion to treat it like therapy and not like a super serious undertaking. gonna keep it to myself until I know for sure people are ready to see it.

Nature valley Nut-bars aside, I'm actually enjoying it. being able to to write freely about what I'm feeling without constraining myself to one medium and get some feelings off my chest at the same time feels liberating. Because of this I've been able to get my goat into gear and grab life by the horns. its not much and I probably still have some neurosis in the back of my head that might show up from time to time, but its a fucking start, SO LET ME HAVE MY MOMENT DAMN IT!

rebooted my persona, still the same Ramblez but now its a pumpkin geist. the original design was actually a spur of the moment thing, based on one of my favorite outfits (anyone else ever just sign a character based on an outfit?) but the time had came and I needed to remake it. the design is not purely one of these "because pumpkins are cool" it... actually came from a dream.

I was walking through a graveyard that was next to a pumpkin patch with the grim reaper and kept asking him if I was going to die soon at all, eventually he got tired of me asking and pushed me into the pumpkin patch and started rough housing. Somehow in the midst of it I got a pumpkin stuck on my head, but I couldn't get it off so I kept it.

when I woke I felt inspired, like this idea was meant to happen. I even built more on the use of the pipe, now the pipe is demonically possessed and burns souls. So its not canon that Ramblez smokes souls to gain power... and get high. I was really wanting to know how to came about that aspect, I was toying with it back in october and november but I wanted to find a way of making it interesting rather then just "BLAH! I EAT SOULS!".

Also someone on the back burner from the ancient group I was with, may have accidentally given me an idea, and I think I might indulge in it now. Jokes on you! You JUST ADDED Afterlife Ghost-train Conductor to my character lore, SO SUCK IT! I'm INTO THAT SHIT!